Begin.

I don't know what I am doing here. I have this urge to write. I missed the golden days of blogging, at least as far as writing goes; I was and am an avid blog reader. So, I researched how to create a blog these days. All of the big platforms were overkill for what I had in mind or they required ads or they were run by tech companies I don't trust.

I found neocities. It's free. It's basic in a good way. I know a little html and css, and I tried to set something up that I could easily update. It was a lot for me. It didn't have enough "blog" functionality. I didn't have the skills or the patience to get it there. I found some templates & tools like zonelets and bimbo. Still I found my skills and patience were not up to it. Eventually, I came across publii and that is what I am using. It is like a barebones wordpress, but installed locally on your computer. Now, I have everything set up. There is still more I can tweak but the basic site is ready. 

I only have to write.

Since this is my first post and I've already bored you with how I got here, I'll tell you a little about myself. I'm old. No, I shouldn't say that. Most of my friends are older than me. I am early Gen X. I am queer. I came out in the late eighties - early nineties. I proudly called myself a dyke and a lesbian feminist. Now I am a trans man in a relationship with a gay cis man and I call myself queer. I am college educated. I read too much and yet never seem to have the time to read serious nonfiction things. I read a lot of fantasy, science fiction, and horror. I want to read books on current events, history, and religion. I'm an atheist, mostly, who has always been fascinated with religion. 

I lived for twenty years in a place I hated, doing a job I barely tolerated. Inertia ruined my life. I let it lay waste to years of my life. Did I mention I am old? If you're young, don't do what I did. Fuck what you are supposed to do and do what you want to do. People told me that when I was young and I thought I would listen to them, but job security and paying off my student loans was too tempting.

I am only now learning how to do what I want to do. It's hard. I guess that is what I'm doing here. I'm writing because that is what I want to do now.